气味

     今天我想谈的不是那种单纯的气味,而是自以为是的味道,这种本不应该被闻到的味道,却因为过于浓重,而让我这个嗅觉本不特别灵敏的傻姑娘也能闻的到.

     有些人扬眉吐气了,总算在卧薪尝胆后尝到了胜利的果实,取得了些成绩,这本是值得庆贺的,也是值得让身边的人为之骄傲的.但或许因为这成功来的太过艰辛,尝到了太多不为人知的辛酸,在卯足了劲跨向成功以后,由于劲用的太大,以至于把人格也给扭曲了,变的那么不近人情,那么的世故,那么的圆滑,那么的贪婪,那么的自以为是……….

    这些自以为是的人,一举一动都会散发着那种让人不愉快的气味,高调的自以为是让人讨厌,低调的自以为是更让人厌恶…..

独自在家

       我独自在家,而且要独自很久. 我享受这分宁静,虽偶尔觉得寂寞,但这寂寞象壶清酒,味道不是那么的浓重.妈妈吵着要来陪我住,被我婉言的拒绝,她担心我的饮食问题,可她何尝又知道,美食的诱惑远远不敌独自一人的那份潇洒和快活.

       我回到家,脱去首饰和衣裳,只穿着内衣在家中游荡.打开电视调到喜爱的频道,也不一定非要看,但就让它响着.拿起一本书,细细的读着,偶尔发发呆,想想爱人.写写小杂记,很是逍遥.

      晚上我总开着灯睡觉,因为就我一个人,白天和夜晚不用分的那么明显…..

      老公,老妈,我觉得自己好虚伪,嘴里说想你们,但却一个人独欢………哈哈哈哈!

陌生又熟悉的城市

　　我以前从未抱怨过这座城市的喧嚣和吵闹，但现在的我走在马路上有点头晕的感觉．去哪大家都大声的叫喊着，生怕别人听不见似的．自行车大摇大摆的在大马路中溜达着．哪，哪的人！车子就在眼前不停的穿梭着，我觉得自己好象已经比这个城市的节拍慢了一拍，对，其实是我变了，而不是这座城市．是我变的陌生了．．．．．

做个国际人

       在没回上海之前,我可是对上海朝思慕想啊!,经常做梦梦到好吃的水煮鱼,满街的服饰小店.只要在电视上看到”东方明珠”的出现就欣喜若狂,甚至热泪盈眶.在异乡生活一年半后总算回到了魂牵梦绕的土地-上海.从机场出来以后的一小时里我的感觉一下子就从沸腾降到了冰点,只是无意中撞了一下前面迈着”慢三步”那样步行的大婶,被她投来狠狠的冷眼和谩骂,无论我如何说对不起,人家只是伫足凝望我,豪无表情.进了出租车,那股浓浓的香烟味袭来,怎么可以在出租车抽烟呢,每天来来往往那么多人,多影响他人健康啊!讨厌!

      第二天来到中山公园办点事,那个人潮澎湃啊!这么多人穿梭不停真的很容易使人视觉疲劳,马路上都是车,一派繁忙但凌乱的景象,在去外婆家的路上,搭上了轻轨,我连个站的地都没,哎!

      跟朋友吃饭,多数人都在谈工作,前途,发展,金钱.让人真的有点喘不过气来,也没办法生存压力大,难免会有些激进.

      跟个在亚洲生活很多年的荷兰朋友聊天,因为他最终回到了荷兰工作生活,让我羡慕不已,但他却感慨的说,他觉得自己也不完全适应荷兰的生活节奏和那里人传统的思维方式,但到了亚洲,他也觉得自己不完全适应亚洲的生活.总而言之很尴尬.

     我想我能理解,在一个人有了不同的经历,受过不同文化的洗礼后,你会发生些质的改变,你不再单纯的象你的同胞那样思维,也不会完全接受另一个不同的文化,在不停的挣扎中，你找到了全新的自己,那个全新的人只有和她有过类似经历的人才能完全明白.

     这种人就叫做”国际人”,这种人的地域观念模糊,适应能力强,多数会几种语言,他们活在边缘中…………

Friends-朋友

    

     朋友,我感觉现在人不再象以前那样把友谊看的很重了.象以前常说的:朋友妻不可欺,为朋友两肋插刀等等,在当今这个社会听起来显得特别的天真,冲动和愚蠢.我个人觉得这些东西虽然老土,但真的是好东西.人跟人之间的友情就应该这么纯粹.父母经常告戒我,交朋友要谨慎啊,到最后害你的往往是你的朋友,因为她们了解你啊!想想也是,怪不得认识有些人对自己的私事都支支吾吾,对别人的事情却有着万般好奇.

    交朋友要谨慎不假,但如果一旦交了这个朋友就要坦诚,真的要交心,我是看不惯故作神秘的人,也不喜欢爱打听别人隐私的人,凡事不能走极端,孔子的中庸之道在某些时候还是很受用的.

    在这个纷繁复杂的社会,复杂的人际关系让人喘不过气,人跟人之间最基本信任也已经丧失,真朋友假朋友能够区分吗?说难也难,说不难也不难,能不能交心,一接触就知道.

   真想多些交心的朋友,女人老了,朋友真的很重要!

Hippy-嬉皮士

    在泰国机场的海关处,大家都排队等着通关.我看到了一个行为举止很古怪的外国女人.首先引起我注意的是她的服装,我从没见有人这么穿过,一件粉红毛线织的斗篷一直拖到她的脚后跟,下摆呈三角形状.被她套在一件纯白的棉布类的大睡袍外面.脚穿一双平底的白色布鞋.金黄色的披肩发凌乱的散落着,并在脑勺后面扎起了一个小鬏.她手里更是抱着一把跟她体形相比之下显得硕大的白色的且印有粉红玫瑰图案的花瓶似的东西,如果是一世纪前她这么穿出来,可能别人会以为她是卖花女.更诡异的是她一直对所有的人微笑,是那种皮笑肉不笑的很矜持的微笑,当笑容朝向我时,有点让我不寒而颤,好象是电影里的那种魔鬼天使对她的猎物暗示:you are the one.

    在我前面排队站着的几个一起同行旅游的外国女人也一边打量着她一边窃窃私语.队伍很快排到那个诡异的女人,她一个劲的对着海关工作人员微笑,却因为她忘记填写通关单被勒令在旁边填写,那位工作人员从头到尾都没笑过.她也因此停止了笑容.我很顺利的通了关,在等候厅就再也没看到她.

    我后来问了老公刚才有没有注意到一个举止很古怪的女人,他立刻回答我:she maybe is a hippy. 然后他跟我解释其实在欧洲有很多hippy,他们都信奉爱情与和平,喜欢自然材质的东西,而且以素食主义者为多.他们并且讨厌一切太过物质的行为和人.然后他补充这是一个很便宜的信仰,很多人变成hippy都是因为物质生活条件比较差,他们就试着去找到一种途径让自己去忘记甚至痛恨物质享受.

   我想我是不会成为hippy的，因为我不想自己骗自己.

wine and coffee

        I was sitting in the airplane alone, waiting for taking off. A middle-age woman came and sat next to me.I’m used to sit with my husband who i name him ‘pig’. A woman instead of my pig,i had a bit strange feeling. The woman was very friendly,kindly said ‘hello’ to me. Of course i treated her the same way back.

       As you know Thai airline is famous of good service, after the plane took off shortly, the stewardess started to serve drinks and sancks.”what would do you like to drink?” i was asked by a very nice looking stewardress .”a glass of red wine” i quickly answered without any thinking.”ok,here you are”- i got my first red wine. i tasted a bit like normally  professionals do. For me the wine was pretty good. If my pig had heard my comments on wine would definitely say: Hi, do you really know what kind of wine is good? so luckily he didn’t hear.I can be at least once a self-believe wine taster.

      After a while, i wanted to have some small talks with my neigbour.Nobody to talk is too boring for a talkative person like me. i tried to start the conversation several times. but she was wearing the big and fancy sun glasses all the time. I could not open my mouth to somebody who even doesn’t want to have direct eye-contact, so i finally gave up.

     “what else whould you like?” the nice stewardess came to me again.”EMMMMMM,coffee please!” i was more than polite.”ok Madam” so i got my first coffee, meanwhile i still had more than half glass of red wine waiting to be finished.

      Suddenly i realised, i ordered the wine and coffee which are not my favorite drinks but my pig does like them.Maybe i already started to miss him, the following 10 days holiday without him does not sound a holiday for me.Drink wine and coffee can make feel more close to him. it’s just like some people like to hold the ex-boyfriends’ underwears while sleep . Does it sould too pathetic ? i guess so, so I also suddenly realised another thing which i don’t like to adimit that is i’m just a lacrimose silly girl.

My holiday

15 days holiday is over , some pics about my interesting holiday, we bought a small bungalow in Thailand and decorated it all by ourselves , it was very tiring but exciting experience especially when it happened abroad.

(on the way to the airport)

(in the car)

(we rent a motorbike)

(at our terrace)

(12 houses share one 15m x 5m swimming pool)

(Laogong standing in front of our house)

(before moved in)

(after decorated)

(the right one is ours)

(nice view with swimming pool)

(other houses)

(pic took from our terrace)

(kitchen mixes with living room)

(bedroom in purple )

(a small dressing room)

(bathroom)

(dining table)

(living room sofa can be folded back to be a bed)

(enough for two person if they are not super fat)