审视生活

      我人在印尼,没来之前我就总杞人忧天般的担心-这个地方不安全,恐怖分子很多,又地震又海啸.我觉得自己有点奔赴战场的感觉.在印期间,邀请过家里的亲戚和几位朋友来玩,但都被很婉言的拒绝,显然大家对这里还是怀有一丝的恐惧.关于这点我完全理解,因为就连我至今也仍觉得这里不是个久留之地.

     昨天看新闻,浦东的一个加油站爆炸,4死2重伤.我告诉了我家那口子,我家那口子用怀疑的口吻回答我:上海?在上海?真的吗?显然他似乎也觉得上海应该是个绝对没有血腥的祥和之地.

    今天,看了洪晃写的一个帖子,名为:顿悟. 于似乎,我真的用心的顿悟了一下:月有阴晴圆缺,人有祸夕旦福!我没有理由要让自己不开心,但有绝对的理由让自己开心.套用一句”名言”-如果上天再给我一次机会,我会把以前失去的欢笑再加倍的拾回,如果一定要给数字,那将是100倍.

three day turns out to be a giant panda

       I have been watching <sex and the city> for three days, from season 1-6! my eyes are feeling awful right now.do i look like a giant panda? absofuckinglutely…….haha!

      Remember somebody has mentioned to me, American girls are made for American guys. because the girls are tough,the men are flirtatious. so those guys are not easy to be tamed. At least i can’t.

      Back to the love story, i think eveybody has been through some  difficult relationships, like i always like to say: the real love never runs smoothly.

      Now let’s talk about the city! Those ladies who are living in Shanghai  can never ever imagine how much i suffered being this city-Jakarta. this is not a city for girls except for the nice shopping malls. I never heard such a suggestion from my female friends’ mouths like let’s go to have a drink after work. Girls don not enjoy drinking with girls here, it’s damn boring…..

      Ok, bullshit too much, now i gonna go out with my male friend (p.s. my husband) for a cocktail……

我做不了赌徒

      在这几年中国所谓的”投资大时代”时期,我身边出现了很多赌徒,赌股票,赌房子.赌婚姻,我自认为我做不了赌徒,因为我的心不够黑,手腕不够狠,我太有自知之明.所以我觉得我是发不了横财,走不了狗屎运的人.

     人生的起伏很难说,高点和低点交替轮换,如果在人生高点的时候去透支消费,觉得自己只会是走上扬线的,这种想法未免太幼稚.等低点来临那天哭也来不及.

    所以,我总是活的小心翼翼的,我喜欢做非常充足的准备.就连家里的手纸,我也会每次多买上一大包,绝不让它出现断档现象.晚上能早睡就尽量早睡,保持充足的睡眠才能应付明天不为所知的困难.

    总之,我很保守,对得来容易的爱情和婚姻也看成如获珍宝般,因为我惜缘,我一直觉得人在死亡以后唯一尚存人间的就是灵魂,灵魂是需要爱和坚贞去浇灌.而且不懂得爱的人最后可能都会失去灵魂永存的机会.

   我很批判,所以我做不了赌徒,我不爱跟着别人的思维走,越是看上去绝对美妙的事物,我越是批判.

   我,做不了赌徒,我真的发现!

surprise from Laogong

        One day we were shopping in Plaza indonesia. We went to a toy shop, this toy shop is the’ hometown ‘for few of my very lovely teddy bears, i saw a beautiful high heel shoe (just a toy shoe) which can be used as a ring-holder, i wanted to buy but as i already made a decision right after i came back from China- no any meaningless shopping during this month cos i have had shopped till i dropped ,so i had to say no to the lovely shoe.

       Today, when laogong came back from work and  took out the lovely shoe from his pocket, i was so happy! the surprise thing is not only about the gift ,that is he even remembers! i never expected he would remember such a small thing!really appreciate it, laogong!

       I wish i can bring you a surprise in the near future…….but we both know what can be a nice surprise, right? let’s wish for the best!

奢侈品,我买不起

       在我身边的一群随夫妻子团中,少不了出手阔绰的阔太太,那口子是金领的也不计其数,那一出门,排场啊!最差也要整个BMW,约会也总在五星级饭店,肩背精致的GUCCI或FENDI小挎包,再弄个这几年超流行的GUCCII,VERSACE的大黑墨镜,手指闪烁着至少一克拉的大钻戒,这就出行宫了.

      相比之下,我有点捉襟见肘,我那口子不是什么金领,也就是个中上水平收入的白领,俺因为人生地不熟,也就是个”家里蹲”的小妇人,穷学生.我也极少买名牌,不怕您笑话,俺就没敢进过GUCCI的专卖店,所以每次和她们这些阔太太约会吃饭便是我长见识的时候,例如哪个牌子的跑车出新款了,什么牌子的包包很好看了,就算没吃过猪肉,看看猪跑也不错.酒足饭饱后各自打道回府,也就是所谓的社交了.

     有时真想狠狠心弄个名牌货,买一两个包包和首饰,这点开销老公还是绝对会支持的,但还没鼓起勇气走进那些奢侈店前,俺就立刻断了念头,干吗呢?有钱也不能这样糟蹋呀,包不就是用的吗?干吗花上个几万块买个牌子呢,如果想要质量好的,买个真皮包不就好了吗!钻石再大,又不当饭吃,戴在手上也晃人眼,有个就够了,老公疼爱买个大点的也无妨,但也无需出去显摆.

    有个尚存良心的小贵妇诚恳的告诉我,我也不喜欢这样显摆,但人家都这样,没有掉份,掉的是老公的份,没办法,这就是名利场,大家都要假体面,这我多少也能体会,可能等我们真的很有钱，很有钱的时候我也会那样,至少目前我希望，如果那天真的来临,我也能做个朴实的我,不要势力眼,多想想民间疾苦啊……..

   善哉,一个GUCCI包包买多少大米啊……………………………………………….至少可以买几筐大闸蟹………………………..呵呵!

我的脸上痘开花

    可能最近一直飞来飞去的关系,从热的地方飞到冷的地方，再飞回来,皮肤再也受不了这份折磨,开始一个劲地冒痘了,真不知道哪位好同志能够指点迷津,到底该如何预防这些烦人的痘痘啊!

把照片做了点灯光处理,可痘痘还是清晰可见啊!

我要除痘,有痘可真不逗!

these three months

 The past three months, i’ve been in Shanghai three times, Thailand two times,finally everything is done. i  sold my small apartment, when will i be in Shanghai again? i don’t know, but not very soon…..attach a pic which has been taken just before i left China, miss that time with those girls.